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Now What Do I Do?

Finally! Both boys are in school ALL Day!!! I have been looking forward to this for a while, especially the last month. Relaxation didn’t start one the first day. We got back from our Disney vacation the day before school started so I had a lot if cleaning, organizing, and prepping to do the first couple days. Now that bags have been unpacked, the fridge is full, school supplies are purchased, and new clothes hung in the closet, I can now enjoy my freedom :-)

I have time to workout (uninterrupted), sit on my balcony drinking my green tea while I look out st the amazing view, and of course blog! There is so much I want to blog about that I hardly know where to start.

So I’ll start by answering the question I asked myself when I sat down in my zero gravity chair, inhaled a relaxing breath, and looked out at the world: Now What Do I Do? I wasn’t thinking about the laundry or dishes or even what workout I was going to do. I was wondering what I was going to do with my personal goals/dreams now that I had time to give them attention. Now that My boys are growing up and need me less, ts time for me to grow up too :-)

Do I go back to school and finish my degree? Do I get w second job and help make us more financially comfortable? Do I start my own business? I guess I should have been thinking about this for a while and actually have a plan. But the truth is, I don’t Know what I really want to do. A part of me wants to go back to school because I love learning and getting a degree was a goal I had for myself before having kids. But did I make that goal for me or for someone else? As I’ve learned more about myself, I’ve realized that for a long time, I didn’t know who I was or what I wanted so I let others’ expectations dictate my goals. A college degree was always expected of me by my family. I am still deciding whether or not its something I really wanted.

Getting a second job would help with finances. There are medical bills, car maintenance, boys sports and saving for retirement that would be easier to deal with if there were two incomes. It’s s a shame that being a SAHM isn’t considered worthy enough to be a paid job. I do consider it my job and take pride in it. It’s also annoying that it doesn’t help get you hired in anything besides minimum wage jobs. I would have to go back into a world out of my comfort zone and probably be miserable. Plus, I’d have less time with my kids. It’s not appealing but sometimes we have to make sacrifices. I could start my own business. A scary thought. I don’t know what I would do. I’m really not a fan of those home businesses where you are trying to convince people to buy a certain product. I’m not a great salesperson.

As you can see, I’m a bit lost as to where to go. Taking some time to do some soul searching and find what I would love to do. I’m actually very happy with my Life right now. Despite the challenges Life has thrown at us the last month, I have no complaints. I have live in a great place w/ a million dollar view and weather that’s tough to beat. I wake up next to the man I love everyday. He loves me as I am and supports my dreams/goals. He supports our family and works hard. We made two beautiful boys. They drive me crazy but I couldn’t imagine my life without them. We have a great family. There really isn’t anything more I need or want.

My 1st and 3rd Grader ready for their first day of school:

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The Day After

I ran my second half marathon yesterday (Sunday Oct.14th) even though I was still fighting a virus. My training was already shortened because I had just finished recovering from my first half and had about 4 weeks to get ready for the NWM. The virus hit me 4 days before the race and pretty much took me out. I was still determined to do the race so I focused on resting and saving up all my energy for Sunday.

I finished the race and was still able to do it under 2 hours :-) But yes, it took a toll. Even the fireman and volunteer at the finish line could tell.  I must have looked horrible because they kept asking me if I was ok and if I needed help. lol. I did have a bit of a hard time catching my breath at first but I managed to stay on feet.  I was completely exhausted but I got my pic with the fireman, got some race goodies, and walked to the shuttle back to Union Square. I made it home, but I was physically done.  My stomach hurt, my head hurt, and my whole body ached. I had a fever the whole day.  I was on the couch the whole day. As soon as Ben got home from work, I was in bed.

So Tired! On the Bus back to Union Square.

While I was sleeping, Ben decided to call in sick to work so I could get some rest today.  I woke up at 8a worried that he was late but he told me not to worry and to get some more rest. I was still so tired that I was quickly back asleep. I woke up at 10a because I was hungry. I felt much better and my body didn’t ache. I got some food but was still tired so I went back to bed.

I finally got up at 3p – and felt great. My legs are a little sore but not as bad as I thought they would be. My glutes didn’t even feel sore which is surprising because of all those hills. I didn’t hurt my hip like I did with my first half and my ankle didn’t hurt at all. My fever hasn’t spiked all day and I am finally feeling like I’m getting over this virus.

A day like this makes me realize just how lucky I am. Sometimes I wonder how Ben and I work since we are so opposite in so many ways. But it’s times like this, I am reminded of why I love him so much. Despite his flaws, he is a good man and takes good care of our family. Every stay at home mom knows that there is no resting with kids, and I am grateful that Ben understands that. Thanks to him, I will be able to get back to my routine in no time.